Disclaimer: Not mine. BTVS and Angel belongs to Joss.
Spoilers: Smashed and general Angel season 1-3 (Willow isn’t bad with magic,
irritating Amy is still a rat).
Summary: Set after “smashed”. Spike and Buffy has to deal while the real
problems just began…
Status: not Finished
Author notes: I wrote it right after I saw “smashed” and then it turned out
deferent. loved it? Hated it? Let me know Pls R& R (pls be gentle my
mother tongue is not English so if you do not have the patient to read don’t!)
Buffy woke up, her head was spinning and her body ached. She smelled the
dust in the air and cough. finding herself naked in the arms of Spike made
her…Shock. she came quickly moving Spike aside as he groaned and tightened
his grip on her. “Don’t go luv”
She twisted her face in disgust and dressed up before she awake him.
She left the place shacking. What just happened? Did she really come on Spike
like that? She held her head using her hands for balance. What did she do?
When she came home, Dawn and Willow were waiting for her. There goes the
thought of sneaking up to her room.
Dawn looked very upset so was Willow. They’ve been very worried about her,
couldn’t sleep.
“Where have you been Buffy?” demanded Dawn.
“ It’s non of yr. Business Dawn” Buffy snapped, but didn’t mean to sound
so harsh.
Dawn lowered her look, her voice shacking “ I am sorry Buffy, it’s just that
we were worried about you, we didn’t know…”
Buffy was ashamed-causing Dawn and Willow all those worries. All she wanted
to do was get the hell out of there and crawl under the blanket.
“I am sorry, there was a demon and I had to hide.”
“Why did you had to hide?” asked Willow confused.
“I…I, Spike he…he got heart and I had to help him. Look I am very tired and
really like to see my bad now, if that’s o.k with the two of you”
Willow and Dawn said o.k but Buffy didn’t wait. When she changed her close
to pajamas she remembered everything that happened, all came back to her
in vivid flashbacks *you came back wrong* Spike roughly kissing her, she’s
hot and ready for him, a zipper, spike hardness clinched to her, make her
shiver in anticipation, the walls are breaking down, Buffy settling herself
on top of him, she feels him inside her, his cold hard member pressing his
way through her hot passage. Moaning deeply she looks into his deep blue
eyes and loose herself in them*
Buffy set in her room, leaning her aching form to the headboard of her childish
bed, her head between her hands and then she just started crying. She didn’t
know why exactly, she just felt that she has done something that will disappoint
the others. What did she do? It wasn’t love what she felt towards spike it
was passion pure sex, then why did she felt bad? She had Angel before and
hello a vampire and Anya is a demon, not to mention Willow & Tara relationship.
So she wasn’t the worst of them but still… she couldn’t stop crying.
She welcomed the night, sending a light wind threw her window. she left the
house quietly couldn’t face anyone. As She walked in the cemetery her mind
drifted , feeling as if things have changed for the all scobies. Suddenly
she felt someone behind her, she turned around quickly to face Spike.
He was standing there with his black lather Jacket, a cigarette in his mouth
, a small smirk on his face.
Buffy walked away from him quickly but he was quicker.
“Wait up Luv, you can’t hide from me.” He wanted to touch her again, feel
her hot breath on his cold body.
Buffy turned around to face him” What do you want Spike?”
He dropped the cigarette on the ground after getting her attention. “ bloody
respect is what I want! I am not yr. Slave Buffy. What’s wrong with you.”
She looked at him in cold face. “ I don’t know Spike, why don’t you tell
me? You were the one who said I came back wrong!”
“You got that right, after making love to me you…” It wasn’t making love
and he new it, it was pure fucking, the best he had in all his existence
but that was it.
“ Shut up Spike “ she couldn’t hear that, not from HIM!
Spike punched her in the face and of curse a battle started. All the sudden
Spike pinned her to wall and placed a deep passionate kiss to her mouth.
His tongue touching hers, trying to dominate. Moaning she was loosing herself
AGAIN and couldn’t let that happen so she hit him hard.
“ What the hell are you doing Spike?” she backed away from him stunned, her
breathing became heavy as she started to feel aroused again.
Spike looked at her completely raged “ What’s wrong with you bloody summers?
You can do with me whatever you want but I can’t?” Spike was angry now, no
more smiles. Buffy new he was right. He held her hand. He didn’t want to
leave her, didn’t want to let go.
“Let go Spike,” she shouted at him.
“ No” Spike shouted back “ you will listen to me damn it! “ she looked at
him horrified, she never saw him like that.
“ You can’t treat people like that Buffy”
Buffy released her arm quickly “people Spike, you are not people, you are
just a thing and I am..”
“ I am serious now” Spike sighed taking unnecessary breath and continue,
holding her again, bringing her unwilling form closer to him. ” Look Luv,
I love you. What are you afraid of? We made love and I don’t care how you
wished to call it now, but we did make love pet. I felt you in me, I know
it. Where is the Buffy I knew, the fire in yr. Eyes?”
No, not this feeling again, she was wet for him and all she wanted to do
was jump on him and tear his clothes of, bad Buffy, she told herself, vampire
evil I am a slayer. Knowing that a denial want do her any good she pushed
him away, preventing this intimate closeness.
Answering him the best she could, were was the fire, she asked herself so
many times , where was she?“ She died”.
With that she ran away from him to the magic box.
When Buffy entered everyone where arguing about a demon that Willow thought
she saw. Buffy set quietly, just listening.
“Hi Buff” said Xander “ Patrolling?” Buffy nod her head.
“ I still think it’s a bunny demon,” offered Anya.
Willow twisted her face “what are you talking about, I know what I saw”
“ Did he had carrot?”
“What? NO!” said Willow quite angry. She was pacing back and forth in the
room, considering how will they ever manage without Giles.
All the sudden Spike burst into the shop in full game face, the rage was
evidence in his yellow demon eyes.
everyone looked at the angry mad vampire. He threw a chair and Dawn hid behind
Xander, never saw him like that.
“ What are you doing Spike? “ shouted Xander, “ is Spikee feels lonely tonight?”
Spike didn’t answer him; he went directly to Buffy who came quickly to leave.
Spike held her.
“ Common Luv, I love you”
Xander giggled. Spike looked angry when buffy didn’t reply. He held her close
as she turned her head then he let go of her.
“ Tell them Buffy! I know that what we did last night was Love, tell them”
“ Shut up you idiot,” She was shouting now, her heart was racing fast, please
god, not here, not in front of everyone
“ leave me alone” she was horrified of the gang finds out what happened last
night.
“ I know we made love Buffy it wasn’t just the sex!!!” All the sudden everything
went quiet. A silence echoed in the room.
Dawn was the first to speak“ What?” she came closer to him, looking at Buffy
at the same time.
Xander covered her ears but she already heard it.
Tears came to Buffy’s eyes “ Look what you’ve done”
Everyone looked at her only Xander spoke, still believe in his friend.
“ In your dreams Spike, Buffy would never have sex with you! That will be
a laugh!”
“ Ho really buggers? Me and Buffy had sex last night, ask her”
Buffy was crying hysterically now, she didn’t think she could feel worst
then before, in her room. Loosing consciousness was her mediate fear. She
had to do something before it’s too late
“ Shut up Spike” she threatened ”Or I will stake your heart” this time she
was quit curtain she will do that.
“ Buffy, “ Xander and the others turned to her “ He is lying right?”
She didn’t answer. Looking at everyone, Willow looked worried, Anya looked
board while Xander and Dawn looked afraid, afraid of the truth, although
she new that probably Xander looked more of angry and disappointed.
But Willow knew. She gave her that look, unquestioning one …“Buffy you didn’t
“
Buffy looked at the others and ran from the shop hot tears blurring her view.
